The Conversational Oort Cloud

Defination: The Oort Cloud.

First you have the sun. Than you have the solar system. Beyond Neptune you have Pluto (which is TOTALLY a planet, and my future home :P) and beyond tiny icy Pluto you have a ton of asteroids, comets and tons of other things left over from the formation of the planets. And then you have what is called the Oort Cloud. The Oort cloud is the farthest you can be from the sun and still be in the solar system. It would take light one year to travel to the Oort cloud. It is about a 1/4th of the way toward the nearest star. The cloud is essentially made up of comets and dust, but recent studies show that it has thick bubbles of matieral around it, and scietensts speculate that these weird bubbles actully protect the solar system from gamma ray radiation.

Why do I bring this up? Well this is one my random terms I came up with in a moment of bordem. When it comes to social situations I feel like a conversational Oort cloud. I am as far and removed from the sun, from the center of the conversation, as you can possibly be. I don't know what to say, when I should talk, what I supposed to be doing with myself when I am not speaking or even when to look someone in the eye. I didn't even know that you are supposed to look pepole in the eye when you speak to them until I was ten years old.

I wonder if it will ever be possible for me to simply learn, to read up on how people actually socialize, to practice...and actually apply myself. But why do I have to STUDY socializing? How come most everyone else simply does it? Simply fits into a group while I merly hover as the conversational Oort cloud? How come none of this ever came naturally to me? I know I'll never find "love" if I can incapable of socialization...I will also never move up in the world , and never be anything more than a Krusty slave.

So...where do I start? : /