Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Ocean lounging

Just a thought before bed. Maybe I will look this over and get a poem outta it...





As usual my head is clouded with thoughts and I just can't seem to write them down fast enough. Some are creative, some are insightful and some are just aspirations and desires. One thought that has been circling through my head constantly is my desire to see the ocean again.

We know more about the moon than we do our oceans. Maybe I just feel the need to be close to something as mysterious as my own psyche. The last time I went I walked down the beach for maybe half a mile, far enough to leave civilization for just a brief amount of time, but hopefully close enough for aid if something went wrong. There was a log caught in the sand, wedging itself deeper with every wash of the waves. Tiny ghost crabs were scuttling wildly about, but one got curious enough to stick by my side. The waves put me instantly into a calming trance unlike any I can experience within daily, modern life. And everything felt so small. So tiny, and so easy to overcome. My problems and anxieties were as changeable as the sand the surrounded me. Seagulls flocking about me, squeaking, begging and nudging for my attention, while the rest of the world had blissfully forgotten me.

I wadded out into the waves, I swam, stumbled and laughed and thanked them for clearing the darkness fogging my conciouses. The waves pushed and pulled my body just as they had been reshaping the very earth for billions of years.

I yearned to sit on that beach hours, letting the salt twist my hair into dreads without the slightest care. I yearned to watch the lights fade and for the stars to peer out. But I was granted only a mere glimpse of the night in its most precious jewels.

Perhaps the timing wasn't ready for that particular inspiration.

I am hoping that if I can scrape up some savings that I might get to spend a few days on the ocean shore just thinking. And writing. And feel in tune with existence . Not just droning through a corporate grind.

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Friday, December 23, 2011

The Cure

A short story I wrote for my final project last year. I enjoyed it, with a little polishing up I would love to submit it for publishing.

The Cure


Cain pushed back his ragged blonde hair, and suppressed a shiver. Rumor said the bottom layer of Hell, Cocytus, is forged of ice rather than fire. Cain found actually feeling the cold biting his skin quite disconcerting.

Sirenia lay unmoving on the ice sheet. Her black eyes remained forever locked in a traitorous gaze of seduction. A stake jutted out from the center of her breast. Solemnly Cain pulled his saffron eyes away. He knew well that no hope existed for access to the upper layers of Hell. Killing Sirenia effectively trapped him, just as he had planned.

Cain trudged away without a backward glance, and stalked down the barren path without the slightest sign of faltering. Corpses mortared the walls, the visage of each one twisted in torment. Minutes ticked away…or perhaps millennia. Neither one mattered to Cain. He slipped a hand inside of his coat, pushed aside countless weapons until freeing the gun he sought, an antiquated flintlock pistol.

“Well, you seem quite ready, boy!” issued a ragged voice from nothingness.

Six feet ahead of him a throne forged from human bones materialized within the path. Upon it sat a skeletal figure dressed in gleaming white robes. The figure crouched in an exaggerated fetal position, its black hair hung in wild dreadlocks, the crimson eyes glared out from fathomless eye sockets.

“I am assuming that I need no introduction.” the figure giggled inhumanly.

“Rue, the Vampire King.” Cain stated in a fierce challenge.

The King grinned and hooked a skeletal finger against his lips, exposing inch long fangs. “Did you enjoy the journey? Do you like my kingdom? I have killed so many, absorbed so many souls – but all I can show for it is this corner of hell.”

“Well, my Lord,” Cain scoffed, “You’ve achieved the rank of King. You possess power beyond any other; know secrets that most of our kind never bothers learning. I am certain you embody something of value to me.”


“Is that so, boy?” Rue leaned forward to study the charismatic vampire before him. Cain truly proved himself an exceptional individual. Cain stood tall, well honed with muscle and striking in his leather clothing. The majority of vampires lived as indolent leeches that sloughed through life in bloodstained rags.

“You speak too much, Vampire King. I came to destroy you. That is all we need to say.”

Rue howled in mirth, “Just what do you think my death can offer you? This shoddy corner of hell, or perhaps my throne? No, you must want answers. I see it in those accursed eyes. The human notion to seek answers never quite died within you. You seek the cure to immortality, yes?”

A twinge of emotion tugged at Cain’s face.

The Vampire King shuffled forward. “Astonishing weaponry, boy! I take it that you made a living as a hunter in your human life. Yes, this is interesting. Not only do I see an exceedingly rare vampire in you, but also I see a huntsman. I must represent the biggest game you can bring down. Correct?”

Cain tried to ignore the wretched stench of the King. “Yes, I am desperate for a challenge.”

Rue crowed harshly, “You are telling me you’ve fought your way down through Hell, and slain your beloved just to slake your thirst for the hunt? What a tragedy, what a comedy! How about a trade? You wish to know about the cure, and I am more than happy to surrender that information. Therefore, I will give you the answer, and guide you back to the world above. No more blood shall spill; perhaps you will even find salvation. All you must do is just let me go on living my unlife in peace. What do you say, Cain?”

“You worthless piece of shit.” Cain raised his gun and fired.

A single explosion shattered the air causing icicles to rain down. Rue jolted as a blossom of crimson spread across the center of his chest. He howled without bothering to hide his agony, than sank downward. “ Ah… I am too late I fear!” He giggled even as blood gushed past his lips.

“You didn’t even ATTEMPT to dodge!” Cain shrieked, his face convulsing.

“Why would I do that?”

Cain bent down next to the skeletal vampire and seized its throat. “Talk! I want the answer!”

The King chuckled weakly, amusement flashing in his eyes.

“Stop fucking laughing!” Cain hissed, bared his narrow fangs, than sank down onto Rue’s throat. Life force more potent than any flooded Cain’s mouth. Shocked, Cain yanked away.

The King broke into hysterical laughter, but his voice soon faded. His sunken eyes didn’t close; they remained fixated on the ice above. Soon enough the corpse crumbled into ash colored powder.

Cain pulled away with a groan of pain. Rue’s blood unleashed its power. Tremors rocked Cain’s body. He could no longer feel the cold, instead his brain burned with a torrent of memories from a life more than two thousand years past.


Once again, he felt Sirenia’s hands the first time they touched his skin, saw the flames of her hair, and heard the purr of her voice, “Kiss me, huntsman, and I shall forever be your bride.” He gave no thought of his wife and children awaiting his return. He simply choose her temptation. Instantly Cain wrapped Sirenia within his arms and ravenously found her lips, but she shifted to bite rapaciously into his neck. From that moment onward, he never again fought temptation.

A voice that wasn‘t his own rattled, “Do you see now, boy?”

“What do you mean?” Cain groaned as the memory faded.

“ Think! If you simply returned to your family, lived and savored life, instead of craving Sirenia, would have ever fallen into the depths of Hell to slay me for answers?”

“Is THIS the cure? To savor life and not to crave it?” Cain gasped desperately.

“Yes. We are nothing more than parasites that attach ourselves to the pleasures of life. However, what if we evolved beyond such needs? What if instead of constant temptation, we learned satisfaction? That is the only cure. To evolve, to stop wanting, seek contentment and simply live.”

“I understand…we must change our instincts. Relearn our humanity” Cain whispered and pulled himself up from the dust heap that remained of his prize. “I shall let our race know. Thank you Rue, my King.”

“Going somewhere? That will prove a problem, you‘ve forgotten a serious conundrum.”

“What…” Cain broke off and frantically recalled the details of the icy cavern. He saw nothing except empty throne. He found no exit, no cracks in the walls, only entrance that he had forever sealed off. “NO!” he shrieked. “It…can’t be…”

After all these years immersed in sin, he‘d descended into the lowest level of Hell, one from which nothing escaped. Screaming, Cain began to claw frantically at the walls. Corpses tumbled out of the ice sheets and stared blankly up at him.

At last, Cain drew back, weeping in his helplessness. Crimson tears coursed down his cheeks.

One final time the Vampire King’s voice twittered, “ Ah…so much like me. Welcome to your new kingdom, boy!”


The End


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Saturday, December 10, 2011

Rune Reading: December 10th 2011

Done on the Ipad. Giggity.



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Friday, December 9, 2011

D: Vampire Hunter

This is my favorite piece of this semester, an Italian sonnet inspired by Vampire Hunter D! It seems like once a year I write sonnets inspired by fictional characters. Enjoy! :D



D: Vampire Hunter

The starlight illuminates the road,
and I gaze up at the pale moon.
I possess features from diamonds hewn,
from these hands rivers of blood flowed.
In this immortal form, time never slowed.
Against love, I alone prove immune!
I seek my maker behind every dune,
the stars exist merely to mock and goad.

I cut down his image with my sword
clinched in hand. Steeling my resolve to ice.
Form shimmers; warps into the mother I lost.
"D...please forgive me. My fate is abhorred."
Futile words! Illusion! Through her I slice.
I never feel my heart beneath the frost.




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Wednesday, December 7, 2011

The Bride


Wrote this poem a couple of months back. Enjoy!





The Bride

Today, I am the bride who walks down the aisle alone;
No priest officiated the ceremony; no witnesses beheld the sight
as I slipped the pearl ring onto my own finger.
Heute heirate mich ich. (Today, I marry myself)

I gaze at the glitters of distant worlds
and push the lace from my eyes.
If I could walk across the waves,
if I could tread oceans, would I find you;
my faceless beloved?
Perhaps you stand in the same surf,
paralyzed by the same stars.
Wo bist du? (Where are you?)

A cloud drifts past a cluster of worlds,
throwing a veil between the only sight we share.
Are our chances as veiled as my face?
Perhaps I shall hold this bouquet until the roses wither,
questioning if we shall ever embrace.
Horst du mich? Horst du mich nicht? (Do you hear me? Do you hear me not?)

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Saturday, November 19, 2011

Detective L : A sonnet

Why did I write this? Well, as I recall we were going over sonnets in an old creative writing class and were told to make them slightly romantic. The most romance going on in my life was the fact that I had watched Death Note, and fallen in love with the detective L. So....I took the only "love" I felt in my life and wrote this. A "love" poem for a fictional character.



Detective L



The great bard begged it best,
"What is your substance? Whereof are you made?"
Across static thine obsidian eyes fill me with zest.
And I - captivated in the ragged flow of hair the midnight shade.
Bathed in a pale light, I laugh. Your posture defied word.
Yet I witness your mind analyze faster than belief.
From you flows a voice, colder and more calculated, as any heard.
From your bitterness, only the sugar balanced in thine hand, shall give relief.
Each glorious imperfection is made to show-
Why can such flaws exist, and all the same my heart leaps?
Those eyes are empty cells of animation, held forever low.
Yet in them justice never sleeps.

"What are you?" my mind does scream.
"Do you live? Are you anything more than movement across a screen?"

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Friday, November 4, 2011

The Outside

**The assignment was to create a short narrative based on a dream. Here is what I came up with."


The Outside

The outside world ended two days ago, but I will never again know anything outside of these riveted, steel doors. When the world ends, power must fail. When power fails prisons form in the most unlikely places. Still, the end of the world is no excuse to miss work. When the modern world exhaled its final dying gasp I found myself within the frozen dough freezer. I could have sworn that the exit was manually operated, but I swore incorrectly. The power failed, and so did my escape. No. I am not destined to freeze to death. Rather I will starve surrounded by fleshy masses of half thawed dough. I hear it again, a tiny clacking in the right corner of my steel prison. Skritch. Skritch. Skritch. The steady scratching times well with the drip, drip. drip of melting ice. They are my only companions, along with the fungal stench of rising bread. Skritch! Skritch! Drip! Drip! Skritch! I am not sure how long passes before the impatient skritch morphs into an angry scrape. Chunks of metal peel forward, and claws hook through the gap. Against Death, stainless steel walls prove quite weak. Fear builds, a raging inferno in my chest. Fur coated paws press through the breached wall, drooling maws and blazing gold eyes follow. A pack of wolves crawls through the wall and lurch for me, their immobilized prey. I finally shriek, run wildly and stumbled over boxes scattered haphazardly about. Suddenly I stop, an image flashes across my mind. I see photographs of pigs undergoing various stages of decay. Their bodies bloated with intestinal gases, and maggots...no...maggot masses swarmed their flesh. I am comforted. At least that wont be me...at least I wont have any intestines left to bloat me...at least I wont have any maggot masses. Rats can have the remains of me. Rats are much cutier than maggots...


Meaning: This was a very short dream for me, it happened in the span of about 20 minutes but it is packed with more sense than most of my dreams. The most obvious meaning in my eyes isn't even the haunting image of Death, but rather my fears and anxieties regarding work. I have worked in a bakery for five years and never truly loved the job. The wolves are symbols of debt, career and fear of failure rushing in to overwhelm me. I think of the decaying pig images because the series of images fascinates me and and haunts me. Death is a big factor in this dream, but I feel my decision to accept Death quietly is very potent. It's as though I would rather the wolves of debt and career failure overwhelm me than to put up a fight. It is a very defeated dream no matter how you look at it.


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